Saturday, April 27, 2013

Poetry Response #13: at the cemetery, walnut grove plantation, south carolina,1989 By: Lucille Clifton

at the cemetery, walnut grove plantation, south carolina, 1989
By: Lucille Clifton

among the rocks
at walnut grove
your silence drumming 
in my bones,
tell me your names.

nobody mentioned slaves
and yet the curious tools
shine with your fingerprints.
nobody mentioned slaves 
but somebody did this work
who had no guide, no stone,
who molders under rock.

tell me your names,
tell me your bashful names
and i will testify

the inventory lists ten slaves
but only men were recognized.

among the rocks
at walnut grove
some of these honored dead 
were dark
some of these dark
were slaves
were women
some of them did this
honored work.
tell me your names
foremothers, brothers,
tell me your dishonored names.
here lies
here lies
here lies
here lies
hear



     This poem by Lucille Clifton is very powerful especially in the way she chooses to end it with very short, straight to the point lines. Ms. Clifton is an African American who wrote this poem after a tour she took of the walnut grove plantation in South Carolina. This tour she took never mentioned slaves or anything along those matters so she was curious in asking more questions about the plantation. She wants the slaves to be remembered because although all this happened in the past it still happened and we can't just ignore what happened and try and cover it up by leaving all mention behind. The first two stanzas are her curiosity, why does no one mention the slaves because someone did the work here. She speaks of the silence under the rocks in where these men and possibly woman now sleep their eternal death under the earth. The third stanza is that she wants to know their names so that she can tell others what they did and what happened to them, so that they past my still be known regardless of the tragedy. She did her research and found that ten male slaves were accounted for but women were not included. The last stretch of the poem wraps it all together in such powerful words even though such little was said. under the rocks were black slaves, including women unaccounted for in the inventory. They did honorable work but their names were dishonored as they were not recognized in their passing. The last five lines make a huge statement to list those who lie there as "here lies" and ending it with "hear," as in listen. Listen and see the people who worked here and suffered. Open your ears and honor those who should be honored. Because they are people just like us and there they lie now unknown, unnamed... ♥




Saturday, April 20, 2013

Poetry Response #12: Many red devils... by Stephen Crane

Many red devils. . .
By: Stephen Crane


Many red devils ran from my heart
And out upon the page.
They were so tiny
The pen could mash them.
And any struggled in the ink.
It was strange
To write in this red muck
Of things from my heart.





     Many red devils by Stephen Crane is an amazing poem using extraordinary imagery to get his point across of our demons. The poem describes what he writes as little devils on the page running from his heart. Sometimes we have so many demons in our heart it's hard to escape them as we try and kill them, as they are now blood split on a page. I personally relate myself to this poem in how I handle my demons. It helps to write down on the troubles in your heart and lay them out on a page. Not for other peoples' eyes but just so that in your own heart can attempt to let go of everything held inside. The symbolism of devils running out, is such a great image though. I love the way he made the relation of our demons with devils literally running onto the paper as we try and crush them through our writing.   

     I enjoy combining music with any emotion I may be feeling. With this specific poem there are many songs that would work so well but the one I will share is, "Animal I Have Become" by: Three Days Grace.


                                                           "Animal I Have Become"
I can't escape this hell
So many times i've tried
But i'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
(This animal, this animal)

I can't escape myself
(I can't escape myself)
So many times i've lied
(So many times i've lied)
But there's still rage inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal

Somebody help me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
Somebody wake me from this nightmare
I can't escape this hell

(This animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal)

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
(This animal I have become)





"Animal I Have Become" By: Three Days Grace♥


Sunday, April 7, 2013

Poetry Response #11: Oh No by Robert Creeley

Oh No
By: Robert Creeley


If you wander far enough
you will come to it
and when you get there
they will give you a place to sit

for yourself only, in a nice chair,
and all your friends will be there
with smiles on their faces
and they will like wise all have places.




     Oh No by Robert Creeley is a really short poem but says so much in so few words. The first stanza  is life's journey in a nut shell! We wander through life and once we've made it so far we are there. We are now old and frail where we will finally need a place to sit in which we will be given. Everyone gets their own and isn't a crappy chair, but a good one. All of our friends will be there as well because our lives will all be around an end, but with smiles as we have lived out our lives and now it is time to be together again, to sit and rest. They will have places along side of us as we are now taking the end of our journey together. Another thought on this could be a nursing home. After life's journey we take our last sitting together in a home for the elderly. I really enjoy how the author can say so much in such a small poem. Length doesn't always determine the importance or strength that words have to offer. 

Saturday, March 23, 2013

Poetry Response #10: The Guitarist Tunes Up by Frances Cornford


The Guitarist Tunes Up

By: Frances Cornford
With what attentive courtesy he bent
Over his instrument;
Not as a lordly conqueror who could
Command both wire and wood,
But as a man with a loved woman might,
Inquiring with delight
What slight essential things she had to say
Before they started, he and she, to play. 



     The Guitarist Tunes Up by Frances Cornford brings an image of a humble performer. He takes the relationship with a woman to explain a mans relationship with his guitar. He explains it not as a man who is a "look at me I'm all that" kind of performer; but as a man who loves his guitar and plays it as if it were a woman he is in love with. He is gentle and sweet which makes the music even sweeter. He is "bent over his instrument," not as a "lordly conqueror," but as a man who is loved by a woman with so much "delight." The woman and a mans relationship with her is an underlining metaphor for his relationship with his guitar as well as the music he plays really. The guitar is his woman in this case and he will love it as such. The music is the words that "she had to say before they started, he and she, to play." The guitar is "she," as he begins to play. They work together to make music, as he plays and she brings out the beautiful melody in sweet song. 


   

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Poetry Response #9: How to Write a Poem about the Sky By: Leslie Marmon Silko

How to Write a Poem about the Sky
By: Leslie Marmon Silko

You see the sky now 
colder than the frozen river
so dense and white
little birds
walk across it.

You see the sky now 
but the earth
is lost in it
and there are no horizons.
It is all
a single breath.

You see the sky 
but the earth is called
by the same name
                                  the moment 
                                      the wind shifts 
sun splits it open
and bluish membranes
push through slits of skin.

You see the sky


     How to Write a Poem about the Sky by Leslie Marmon Silko is a beautiful poem. The first stanza gives a beautiful image almost as if their is a frozen pond in the sky with little birds walking across or hopping across. Though, it really is the birds gracefully flying in the sky. The second stanza brings the sky and the earth as one while it works as "a single breath." Through the sky we don't see the earth as a whole but beyond the sky is the whole earth. The third stanza has a great structure shift in order to give what it is saying more power. Clouds that cover the sky get moved by the wind and it opens up to show the sun. Then she uses the image of how the human body is put together in order for us to see splitting of the clouds in revealing the sky. The beauty in how she portrays and the sky and the way she uses formatting to add emotion is great. The sky really is beautiful. ♥
This poem was written for the students of the Bethel, Middle School in Bethel, Alaska in February of 1975.

Thursday, March 7, 2013

Poetry Resonse #8: What the mirror said By Lucille Clifton

What the mirror said
By: Lucille Clifton

listen,
you a wonder.
you a city
of a woman.
you got a geography
of your own.
listen,
somebody need a map
to understand you.
somebody need directions
to move around you.
listen,
woman,
you not a noplace
anonymous
girl;
mister with his hands on you
he got his hands on
some
damn
body! 



     What the mirror said  by Lucille Clifton is such a beautiful poem about what woman should see in the mirror rather than what they think they see. It also touches on how a man should treat a woman as well. Right off from the start I could tell the author was African American by the way she says and portrays word in this poem such as "you a wonder" and "you not a noplace."  I picture a woman judging herself in the mirror while the mirror decideds to speak up. First telling her how great she is, then almost mocking her thoughts of what she sees, and then brings the poem back around to see the beauty she really is. Most woman when they look in the mirror look at any flaws they see and how "fat" they are, but the truth is we are beautiful in our own way. Don't let society tell you how to look or feel. Saying that, then men, respect your lady and ladies in general. They are beautiful don't be so quick to judge the outside when true beauty is found within. Girls remember that when that man does has his hands wrapped around you, he sees you as beautiful just as you should see yourself as beautiful. The reason I enjoyed this poem was the fact that it's true even for myself... I don't look in the mirror and think beauty, I think of everything that could change to make me "beautiful." The truth is we are all beautiful and we as well as others need to keep that respect of beauty. 


You are all beautiful keep your heads up always! :)

Sunday, March 3, 2013

Poetry Response #7: To This Day by Shane Koyczan

To This Day 
By: Shane Koyczan

To This Day
When I was a kid
I used to think that pork chops and karate chops
were the same thing
I thought they were both pork chops
and because my grandmother thought it was cute
and because they were my favourite
she let me keep doing it

not really a big deal
one day
before I realized fat kids are not designed to climb trees
I fell out of a tree
and bruised the right side of my body

I didn’t want to tell my grandmother about it
because I was afraid I’d get in trouble
for playing somewhere that I shouldn’t have been

a few days later the gym teacher noticed the bruise
and I got sent to the principal’s office
from there I was sent to another small room
with a really nice lady
who asked me all kinds of questions
about my life at home

I saw no reason to lie
as far as I was concerned
life was pretty good
I told her “whenever I’m sad
my grandmother gives me karate chops”

this led to a full scale investigation
and I was removed from the house for three days
until they finally decided to ask how I got the bruises

news of this silly little story quickly spread through the school
and I earned my first nickname

pork chop
to this day
I hate pork chops

I’m not the only kid
who grew up this way
surrounded by people who used to say
that rhyme about sticks and stones
as if broken bones
hurt more than the names we got called
and we got called them all
so we grew up believing no one
would ever fall in love with us
that we’d be lonely forever
that we’d never meet someone
to make us feel like the sun
was something they built for us
in their tool shed
so broken heart strings bled the blues
as we tried to empty ourselves
so we would feel nothing
don’t tell me that hurts less than a broken bone
that an ingrown life
is something surgeons can cut away
that there’s no way for it to metastasize

it does
she was eight years old
our first day of grade three
when she got called ugly
we both got moved to the back of the class
so we would stop get bombarded by spit balls
but the school halls were a battleground
where we found ourselves outnumbered day after wretched day
we used to stay inside for recess
because outside was worse
outside we’d have to rehearse running away
or learn to stay still like statues giving no clues that we were there
in grade five they taped a sign to her desk
that read beware of dog

to this day
despite a loving husband
she doesn’t think she’s beautiful
because of a birthmark
that takes up a little less than half of her face
kids used to say she looks like a wrong answer
that someone tried to erase
but couldn’t quite get the job done
and they’ll never understand
that she’s raising two kids
whose definition of beauty
begins with the word mom
because they see her heart
before they see her skin
that she’s only ever always been amazing

he
was a broken branch
grafted onto a different family tree
adopted
but not because his parents opted for a different destiny
he was three when he became a mixed drink
of one part left alone
and two parts tragedy
started therapy in 8th grade
had a personality made up of tests and pills
lived like the uphills were mountains
and the downhills were cliffs
four fifths suicidal
a tidal wave of anti depressants
and an adolescence of being called popper
one part because of the pills
and ninety nine parts because of the cruelty
he tried to kill himself in grade ten
when a kid who still had his mom and dad
had the audacity to tell him “get over it” as if depression
is something that can be remedied
by any of the contents found in a first aid kit

to this day
he is a stick of TNT lit from both ends
could describe to you in detail the way the sky bends
in the moments before it’s about to fall
and despite an army of friends
who all call him an inspiration
he remains a conversation piece between people
who can’t understand
sometimes becoming drug free
has less to do with addiction
and more to do with sanity

we weren’t the only kids who grew up this way
to this day
kids are still being called names
the classics were
hey stupid
hey spaz
seems like each school has an arsenal of names
getting updated every year
and if a kid breaks in a school
and no one around chooses to hear
do they make a sound?
are they just the background noise
of a soundtrack stuck on repeat
when people say things like
kids can be cruel?
every school was a big top circus tent
and the pecking order went
from acrobats to lion tamers
from clowns to carnies
all of these were miles ahead of who we were
we were freaks
lobster claw boys and bearded ladies
oddities
juggling depression and loneliness playing solitaire spin the bottle
trying to kiss the wounded parts of ourselves and heal
but at night
while the others slept
we kept walking the tightrope
it was practice
and yeah
some of us fell

but I want to tell them
that all of this shit
is just debris
leftover when we finally decide to smash all the things we thought
we used to be
and if you can’t see anything beautiful about yourself
get a better mirror
look a little closer
stare a little longer
because there’s something inside you
that made you keep trying
despite everyone who told you to quit
you built a cast around your broken heart
and signed it yourself
you signed it
“they were wrong”
because maybe you didn’t belong to a group or a click
maybe they decided to pick you last for basketball or everything
maybe you used to bring bruises and broken teeth
to show and tell but never told
because how can you hold your ground
if everyone around you wants to bury you beneath it
you have to believe that they were wrong

they have to be wrong
why else would we still be here?
we grew up learning to cheer on the underdog
because we see ourselves in them
we stem from a root planted in the belief
that we are not what we were called we are not abandoned cars stalled out and sitting empty on a highway
and if in some way we are
don’t worry
we only got out to walk and get gas
we are graduating members from the class of
fuck off we made it
not the faded echoes of voices crying out
names will never hurt me

of course
they did

but our lives will only ever always
continue to be
a balancing act
that has less to do with pain
and more to do with beauty.




     



     To This Day by Shane Koyczan is a beautiful poem! The video that the author created adds so much emotion to the words that already contain a pool of feelings. Every time I watch this video it brings me to tears from things in my own life to getting the sense of how others have felt as well. We play this video at the beginning of our show "Sideshow" because of the message it contains about how some people are different and the pain other people can cause upon others. Our directors looked at this video as acceptance and tolerance, but for me the message is for those bulling, stop, you don't realize how you are affecting people and for those being bullied, it is over coming the pain and suffering and realizing through it all we made it! We may feel weak as we are bullied but the truth is we are the strongest ones out there as we continued to push forward. 

"started therapy in 8th grade
had a personality made up of tests and pills
lived like the uphills were mountains
and the downhills were cliffs
four fifths suicidal
a tidal wave of anti depressants
and an adolescence of being called popper
one part because of the pills
and ninety nine parts because of the cruelty
he tried to kill himself in grade ten
when a kid who still had his mom and dad
had the audacity to tell him “get over it” as if depression
is something that can be remedied
by any of the contents found in a first aid kit"

     This particular portion in the poem seems to hit me the hardest. People around me don't know what I've been through, the pain suffered, the darkness that consumed my mind day after day. As a child who grew up alone because no one wanted to be friends with a shy little fat girl. Everyone called her stupid because dyslexia held her back from reading fast, spelling things correctly, from the tears that would fall out of frustration when it took her ten times longer to learn something than the others around her. She started struggling with depression, day by day it was like a monster consuming her brain. Her parents didn't believe her, told her to get over it... Months went by and she didn't know how to handle it any more, things happened, but it took the worst for her parents to finally listen. It took the point of almost too late for them to stop ignoring her. Depression can't be cured but it can be numbed, it can be less server, it can be helped. 

"and if you can’t see anything beautiful about yourself
get a better mirror
look a little closer
stare a little longer
because there’s something inside you
that made you keep trying
despite everyone who told you to quit
you built a cast around your broken heart
and signed it yourself
you signed it
“they were wrong”"

     No matter how many times we were told to give up and quit, we kept fighting we sowed ourselves back together and realized they were wrong! To this day we are not the only ones... and yet we will continue to be in pain we have to keep moving forward so that we can make it. 

     For those of us that can relate to any of this poem, remember you are not alone and we are that much stronger because we are still here fighting, regardless of all that has happened to us. "We are graduating members from the class fuck off we made it!" The struggle will continue but even though our lives will continue to be "a balancing act that has less to do with pain and more to do with beauty."



You are never alone. Stay beautiful my friends. ♥   



Monday, February 25, 2013

Poetry Response #6: Wallflowers by Donna Vorreyer

Wallflowers 
By: Donna Vorreyer 

I heard a word today I'd never heard before-
I wondered where it had been all my life.
I welcomed it, wooed it with my pen,
let it know it was loved.

They say if you use a word three times, it's yours.
What happens to ones that no one speaks?

Do they wait bitterly,
hollow-eyed orphans in Dickensian bedrooms,
longing for someone to say,
"yes, you . . . you're the one?

Or do they wait patiently, shy shadows
at the high school dance,
knowing that, given the slightest chance,
someday they'll bloom?

I want to make room for all of them,
to be the Ellis Island of diction-
give me your tired, your poor,
your gegenshein, your zoanthropy-
all those words without a home,
come out and play- live in my poem.


     Wallflowers by Donna Vorreyer is a very beautiful poem as it uses different metaphors to create a strong feeling about the way we use words. Words that may not be known are gegenshein and zoanthropy.
Gegenshein is a patch of very faint nebulous light sometimes seen in the night sky opposite the sun, thought to be sunlight reflected form gas and dust. Zoanthropy is the delusion that you have assumed the form of an animal. She uses another poetry writer in order to portray her purpose. As other writers may use a word once but not enough to make it a word. The words are almost portrayed as a person which brings more strength and light to the poem. As they are waiting to be developed and to be wanted by others. The words are like people coming form foreign countries to America in order to be part of a better society. The author wants to be home for those unwanted words. She is taking them in so that they can have a home and play with the other just as commonly used words. This poem yes is talking about words but we could also look at it in a sense of ourselves and how we are treated. How we want to be loved by others and feel like we are just as special as anyone else. This poem does a great job in giving both feels on self as well as words used.

Sunday, February 17, 2013

Poetry Response #5: The Halo That Would Not Light by Lucie Brock-Broido

The Halo That Would Not Light
By: Lucie Brock-Broido

When, after many years, the raptor beak
Let loose of you,

                                                     He dropped your tiny body
In the scarab-colored hollow

                                                             Of a carriage, left you like a finch
Wrapped in its nest of linens wound

With linden leaves in a child's cardboard box.

Tonight the wind is hover-

Hunting as the leather seats of swings go back
And forth with no one in them 

As certain and invisible as
                                                  Red scarves silking endlessly

From a magician's hollow hat
                                                        And the spectacular catastrophe 

Of your endless childhood

                                            Is done.


     The Halo That Would Not Light by Lucie Brock-Broido, is a very well written poem almost about a bad childhood rather than a good one. The title of this poem starts the tone. "The Halo" almost brings in a sense of a guardian Angel; then putting the whole title together of "The Halo That Would Not Light," leads me to think almost of an Angel that never showed up. The guardian Angel that we hope to be watching over us, didn't ever seem to be there throughout their childhood. The beginning of the poem is speaking of the years of childhood finally passing but then moves into the things that mad that childhood not so good. The second, third, and forth stanza feel like abandonment. Like a child who was left out in the cold with no one to hold or love them. "Wrapped in its nest of linens wound With linden leaves in a child's cardboard box." This part almost seems like Christ figure, as Jesus was born in a manger and rapped in linden cloths. It then brings us to the fear that comes in the night as the wind blows. "Hunting as the leather seats of swings go back and forth with no one in them As certain and invisible as Red scarves silking endlessly." This part reminds me of horror movies, as the swings go back and and the scarves that blow in the wind. Stanzas eight and nine bring us to a "spectacular catastrophe," to she that a childhood could be spectacular but it must have been tragic to seem so endless. The last stanza of "Is done." Brings us peace as in childhood the Angel may not have been there, but hopefully in the light of the end of this childhood we can finally find peace. 

Sunday, February 10, 2013

Poetry Response #4: Beginning Again by Franz Wright

Beginning Again
By: Franz Wright

"If I could stop talking, completely
cease talking for a year, I might begin
to get well," he muttered.
Off alone again performing
brain surgery on himself
in a small badly lit
room with no mirror. A room
whose floor ceiling ans walls
are all mirrors, what a mess
oh my God-

And still
 it stands,
the question
not how begin
again, but rather

Why?

So we sit there
together
the mountain
and me, Li Po
said, until only the mountain
remains.


     Beginning Again by Franz Wright, is very well done in portraying a struggle within themselves to become a new, almost better, person. He explains his difficulty in changing with the metaphor of "performing brain surgery on himself in a small badly lit room with no mirror.He also explains it as, "A room whose floor ceiling and walls are all mirrors, what a mess oh my God." Both of these show the difficulties in trying to change in two different ways. The first give almost impossibles as if he is trying to change his brain on his own and fix what is wrong but with the complications of doing brain surgery with no way to see what he is doing. The second is in a room of all mirrors as we try to get away from the reflection he is now and can't. The second stanza he is getting the the hard question of how does he change and begin again. Moving onto the third stanza he asks why, what's the point on trying to begin again in the first place. Then he comes to a conclusion in trying to begin again. He listens to Li Po to sit on a mountain until only the mountain remains. Once you can become one with the mountain and it only remains then you can begin yet again. 

Li Po was a poet from the 700 CE in Sezchawn, China. He also really liked the mountains.     

Sunday, February 3, 2013

Poetry Response #3: Mr Fear by Lawrence Raab

Mr Fear by Lawrence Raab

He follows us, he keeps track.
Each day his lists are longer.
Here, death, and here,
something like it.

Mr. Fear, we say in our dreams,
what do you have for me tonight?
And he looks through his sack,
his black sack of troubles.

Maybe he smiles when he finds
the right one. Maybe he's sorry.
Tell me, Mr. Fear,
what must I carry

away form your dream.
Make it small, please.
Let it fit in my pocket,
let it fall through

the hole in my pocket.
Fear, let me have
a small brown bat
and a purse of crickets

like the ones I heard
singing last night
out there in the stubbly field
before I slept, and met you.


     Mr. Fear by Lawrence Raab, is portraying our nightmares as if it were a person. Someone who takes notes of things that may frighten us during the day and then using those fears as we sleep whether it be about death or other frightening events and thoughts. Wondering what fears he will bring that evening as if he has a sack to pick from, randomly choosing the next nightmare. Wondering if he is happy to give the fearful dream or sorry because maybe it his just his job to give you this dream. We ask for small nightmares that will not be so awful or something to allow us to protect ourselves through the dark. Delightful things heard before meeting fear in splendor. This poem shows nightmares very well in how they can effect us. Almost as if someone is watching the things that frighten us the most and making it come alive in our dreams. Such as loved ones dying or people close to us leaving. When I was little I used to have nightmares of tragic events killing my family or murders chasing after me. Some of our biggest fears seems to come alive in our dreams even if we fall asleep to pleasant sounds. Mr. Fear please stay from my dreams tonight so I may sleep tight.  

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Poetry Response #2- Still Memory by Mary Karr

Still Memory

By: Mary Karr

The dream was so deep
the bed came unroped from its moorings,
drifted upstream till it found my old notch

in the house I grew up in,
then it locked in place.
A light in the hall-

my father in the doorway, not dead,
just home form the graveyard shift
smelling of crude oil and solvent.

In the kitchen, Mother rummages through silver
while the boiled water poured
in the battered old drip pot

unleashes coffee's smoky odor.
Outside, the mimosa fronds, closed all night,
open their narrow valleys for dew.

Around us. the town is just growing animate,
its pulleys and levers set in motion.
My house starts to throb in its old socket.

My twelve-year-old sister steps fast
because the bathroom tiles
are cold and we have no heat other

than what our bodies can carry.
My parents are not yet born each 
into a small urn of ash.

My ten-year-old hand reaches
for a pen to record it all
as would become long habit.


     The poem "Still Memory" by Mary Karr is portrayed as dream that is looking at stored away memories. She used, "the bed came unroped from its moorings, drifted upstream till it found my old notch" almost as a metaphor to explain how far back these memories come from. That the bed was released and went so far back until it found that one memory to open up again. She does a great job at letting us see, taste, and feel everything that is going on around her in this specific memory. She goes back to when her parents were still alive, back to the house she grew up in. She is ten-years-old and that was when she began to write down thoughts, memories, or ideas or order for her to become a writer in the future. Karr greatly uses adjectives in order for us to basically "walk through" the memory as well. The poem not only shows a memory of the past but also has an insinuation as to what they future is like for her now.



Memories: A beautiful sight ♥
     


Monday, January 21, 2013

Childhood Memory

      Sitting on the bench, head down, hood up. The sun is shinning with snow melting around me. I hear the other children laughing, playing, and running around. The sound seems muffled as I sit alone, no friends, no one to care, and not a soul that notices the basically invisible girl. I start to sing to myself, the sweet voice of a fifth grader making up the sad songs she feels in her heart. As I sing the tears start to fall slowly down my face while the loneliness wallows up in my eyes. The children just laugh, making rude remarks to the fat little girl that has no friends. The tears fall faster, nobody realizes how sweet the girl is and how big of a heart she has. The tears were a daily thing as people continued to make fun of me. Not one person realized until seventh grade that I was one of the best friends they could ever have. Caring for everyone, loving even the people I disliked, and being there for people no matter what the situation. The problem, no one is ever there for me, they weren't in fifth grade and they aren't now. As I kept crying my teacher Mrs.R came out to comfort me. She took my hand and helped me off the bench, her arms embrace me to comfort my tears and my heart. As fifth grade went on, she became my best friend; when she needed help I was there, and when I needed help she was there for me. From that time on I have continued to be friends and find better relations with people older than me. The memories and feelings of my childhood my hurt, but it brings me to be the person I am today.  





 

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Poem Response #1: To Myself by W.S. Merwin

To Myself by W.S Merwin

Even when I forget you
I go on looking for you
I believe I would know you
I keep remembering you
sometimes long ago but then
other times I am sure you
were here for a moment before
and the air is still alive
around where you were and I
think then I can recognize
you who are always the same
who pretend to be time but
you are not time and who speak
in the words but you are not
what they say you who are not
lost when I do not find you

     To Myself by W.S. Merwin, is a man looking back and realizing he has lost who he really is and is trying to find himself again. The he remembers who he used to be and can still feel that part of himself inside while pretending to be something else. We see him struggling, noticing as he seems to be someone he isn't, "who pretend to be time but you are not time and who speak in the words but you are not what they say." He is searching for who he was, his true self, but have seemed to have lost who he was and can't find or pull himself to be how he used to. He continues to look for who he was and though the struggle it concludes with him not being able to grasp onto who he really was. This poem took awhile to understand as well as if they title is not read a different meaning may come from the poem. Without the title it could seem as if it was a relationship rather than a meaningful poem about himself. Over all, a very meaningful poem! 

Sunday, January 6, 2013

Kite Runner Response

     The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini, is very well written book about a man named Amir and his life story from growing up in Afghanistan, moving to America, and all of the journeys in between. When the book started off I wasn't so sure about it, but as it went on I found myself to really like it. I would recommend it to anyone who is interested in history as well as just a good story. Amir grew up in a wealthy home in Afghanistan with his father Baba and their servants Ali and Hassan. Amir and Hassan grew up as best friends; they did everything together, from going on walks, reading, flying kites, and many other things. The neighborhood they lived in had an annual kite flying event that Amir and Hassan always participated in. The year of kite flying that Amir went in depth about was in 1975 this was the last year they did that event and the last day Amir and Hassan really spent as friends. In March of 1981 Amir and his father had decided to escape to America as Russia was starting to take over Afghanistan. In America they started a new life in California living among other Afghans who had escaped. As time goes on Baba gets diagnosed with cancer. Shortly before Baba passes away Amir gets married to Soraya, another Afghan woman he had met while living in American. Amir and Soraya took care of Baba after getting married and he passed away about a month later. Amir made a good life for him and his wife as he was a successful author. In June of 2002 Amir recieved a letter  from an old friend Rahim Khan who is living in Pakistan and is very sick and requests for Amir to come see him. While in Pakistan Amir learns some very interesting news about everything that had happened. He comes to learn that Hassan and him were brothers, as a cause of his fathers sins with Ali's wife. Rahim Khan had asked Amir to Pakistan to go and find Sohrab, this was Hassan's son. After the Taliban took over Afghanistan everything went south even further in Afghan. Hassan and his wife had been murdered leaving their son an orphan. Amir went on a long dangerous journey into Kabul in order to find Hassan's son. He had come across the Taliban and an old bully from his childhood who was head of the Taliban and in possession of Sohrab. After many hardships and trips to the hospital Sohrab was finally in America with Amir. This story will bring tears, anxiety, and an ending of hope.